After dinner, Fang Yan didn’t return to the hotel with the others. Instead, she went back to her apartment alone.
Fang Yan opened the door and found that furnishings were still the same as she had left it. As she gently runs her finger over the furniture, a thick layer of dust stained her finger. The air was also filled with slight mildew. Looking at everything, Fang Yan wanted to shed some tears, this is where they made some memories. Although there wasn’t much, it was still sweet.
She looked over at the counter where the coffee pot and cups lined up in a row. She still remembered a few months ago when she stood there brewing some coffee when that man hugged her from behind and whispered some not so sweet words into her ear. She still remembered that man would always come to her house when he is not working and sit on the sofa hugging saying that he likes it when she is by his side.
The tears casually fell. Fang Yan gently wiped her tears, no longer thinking about those painful memories. She turned to her wardrobe and picked out some of her favorite clothes and the ones she usually wears and threw them on the bed. As she is packing her clothes, the doorbell rang. Fang Yan frowned, she doesn’t know anyone who would come at this time. Although she is hesitant, she still opened the door.
When she opened the door and saw the person in front of her, she immediately froze. She forgot to think and breathe as she stared at the man in front of her unblinking.
When Zheng Weiqian saw her, his face immediately lit up as if he finally found his beloved treasure. He pulled her into a tight hug to determine if she is real and if it was all an illusion. His cheeks were close to her as he whispered in her ear, “Fang Yan, Fang Yan.”
Today, as usual, Zheng Weiqian worked overtime at the office. During dinnertime, Lin Xuanxuan gave him a call to tell him that she is at his house and to come back early to discuss their wedding next month. He doesn’t love her and only married her because she is pregnant; this is a responsibility he cannot escape. And so, the wedding is set for the 18th of next month. Zheng Weiqian used the excuse of having a lot of work today so he can’t come back early and as for the wedding, he has no opinions. After hanging up the call, Zheng Weiqian found himself not in the mood to work but also doesn’t want to go back home. This time, he couldn’t bring himself to be calm in front of Lin Xuanxuan, even if she is pregnant with his child.
Zheng Weiqian drove through the neon streets, with no direction or purpose until his car stopped below this building. He doesn’t remember how many times he stopped in front of this building. He clearly knows that there is no one in that room and the occupant is gone, but he couldn’t stop his emotions or his actions. He always comes here after getting off work before going home even though there is nothing, he just looks at the dark windows.
As usual, he stopped in front of the building. However, when he looked up, the lights in that room were turned on. His heart immediately began to beat rapidly with joy and fear. He rejoiced with the idea that she is back but also felt few that it could be a new owner. If it is a new owner, then there is no point for him to wait anymore. He immediately ran up the stairs without catching his breath and stood in front of the door. He held his hand up in the air but didn’t dare to press the button, afraid of what he will see.
He took a deep breath, adjusted his breath before pressing the doorbell and heard the crisp sound of the bell.
Soon after, the door opened, revealing the person he missed so much. He hugged her tightly, he didn’t think she would come back.
Fang Yan stood there stiffly as he hugs her. She never thought they would meet so quickly. She just arrived in Shanghai and they already ran into each other. Weiya said they are engaged so what is he doing with her now? He said that he hated her and don’t ever want to see her again, then what is he doing? But damn, she missed his embrace and his warmth. She doesn’t want to push him away.
Fang Yan, in the end, pushed away from his embrace and blackly asked, “Do you need anything?”
Her cold voice stung him. Zheng Weiqian raised his hand to touch her face but she turned to avoid him, leaving his hand awkwardly in the air. Yes, she must be very disappointed in you. He painfully said, “I’m sorry…..”
Fang Yan looked at him and sneered, “What do you need to be sorry for, the one who should be sorry is me. I lied to you, I used you.” Before, she thought that she could never completely hate him. When they meet again, she thought they could pretend like nothing happened and say hi to him. But she can’t, she’s mad at him, mad that he didn’t believe or allow her to explain. She hates him, hates that he could turn around and find another woman to sleep with.
“Uncle Hao already told me.” Because of Uncle Hao's remarks, he knew that he made a terrible mistake. Like a madman, he went to find her but she already left. He never thought about giving up until Lin Xuanxuan announced her pregnancy. However, the love in her heart could not dissipate.
“Really?” Fang Yan coldly laughed. “Congratulations, I heard you’re getting married! If there’s nothing else, I want to sleep.” Fang Yan turned, ready to close the door.
“Listen to me, Fang Yan.” His hand blocked the door, keeping her from shutting it.
“What?” A man’s strength is always larger than a woman’s. Since she can’t close the door, she could only listen to what he has to say.
“I love you. I have no choice but to marry her. She––” Zheng Weiqian urgently said.
“Then break up with her and marry me right away.” Fang Yan blurted out. If he agreed, Fang Yan thinks that she will definitely marry him. But his next words completely broke her heart.
Zheng Weiqian hesitated and said, “She’s pregnant….if I can–––”
Fang Yan shook her head, tears filling up her eyes. She interrupted him and excitedly said, “Do you want to say that if you can, you want me to be your mistress and give me all your love except the position as your wife. And then let that woman point at me and call me a vixen and let my child be cursed at for being a bastard?”
“I….” He wanted to explain but couldn’t find the words.
“Let me tell you, it’s never going to happen.” Fang Yan didn’t wait for him to explain and slammed the door on his face. Zheng Weiqian stood in front of the door, pained and vexed, not intending to leave. On the other side, Fang Yan slowly slide down against the door, curled into a ball and silently cried. After a long time, she got up, took her phone from her bag and called Pei Qing, “Director Pei, can you come pick me up?” Fang Yan send him her address then proceeded to finished packing up her clothes and wait for Pei Qing to come. She knows that he is still outside.
Hi Em. Thanks for all the updates. I am still following the story...stockpiling till now. Looking forward to new chapters.
ReplyDeleteI hope Fang Yan will learn to grow from having lost, be healed and able to open to different way of loving and receiving love. I hope the author will give Fang Yan and Pei Qing a chance. Weiqian is not the kind of man who deserves to love Fang Yan.